Diary of a Consevative Woman

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My original plan for this evening…

Diary of a Republican woman, living in the world today.

Well hello, my fellow internet friends and blog readers! I had this amazing plan to put my 22 month old daughter to sleep, get all comfy and cozy in my PJ’s, get my adorable chihuahua in bed with me, and relax while drinking a cup of coffee and watching some Dateline. Unfortunately, my plan was spoiled because sadly, when I was watching Dateline, my “wonderful” comcast cable went out on me. It was just that fast that my mind went from happy, fun, cozy woman to sad, depressed, crying little girl who just missed my Mama. You see, I went to the cable box to do the thing we all LOVE TO DO, unplug our cable boxes and count to ten, before plugging it back in and waiting 10 minutes for it to actually work again. After I performed this most ANNOYING ritual, I was looking at my black TV screen that kept saying “Welcome, this may take a moment” and I started to think about something HYSTERICALLY FUNNY that my gorgeous daughter did today. She turned on her iPad, went to YouTube Kids, turned on the hot dog song from Disney Channels Mickey Mouse Club, got up on a small chair and started dancing by bobbing up and down to the song with her hands in the air. At the time it did not dawn on me, that my mom would never see that adorable moment that I snuck a video of, but for some weird reason while that screen was black it popped into my head and I felt like someone had sucker punched my chest, leaving me with absolutely no air left in my lungs. It just flashed in my brain, over and over, “YOUR MOM WILL NEVER EVER SEE THIS” and I just let out this yelp and started to cry my eyes out. Not that crazy hysterical cry, where you cannot breathe and your actually screaming, but that cry where you stare blankly into the distance and tears just roll down your cheeks uncontrollably. I really wish that would stop happening and I would be able to go a day without thinking about all the things my daughter’s Munga, (my moms name for Grandma) will never see. I believe it is almost impossible for that to happen when you have a 22 month old, that both you and your mother never thought would ever even exist. You see, my life has been full of ups and downs, insane crazy moments, totally fucked up things that I have done, sad but true stories of days that my mother did not even think I would live until the next day, and if you continue on this journey with me, in my own words, you will learn all sorts of things about me, about life, how I feel about being a mother and wife, how sometimes I wish I could just fade into the background where no one can see me, but most importantly, I believe, you will just have an awesome time reading all about my crazy life. I’ve been waiting for the perfect time to write my first blog, and for some reason my mind kept telling me to get up, grab the laptop and start this thing, or you never ever will. It has always been a dream and goal of mine to at least TRY and do this thing. I am proud of myself for FINALLY writing my very first REAL thing to go live online. At least it made me stop crying my eyes out about my mom. If nothing else, if no one reads this, at least I will know that I actually followed through with something I was wayyyyyyy to afraid to do in the past. Now that my head is pounding with a migraine, I am gonna FINALLY go and execute my original plan for the night…

Stay tuned, I will be back and I will have something very worth reading and HOPEFULLY relating to, even if it is just a little.

Goodnight everyone, hope your night goes as well as my second try is.

4 thoughts on “My original plan for this evening…

  1. SarahLyn says:

    Nice job on your first piece! Be proud of yourself for taking the 1st step! That’s always the hardest part of starting anything.

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    1. Thank you so much! I plan on making this much better and way more relate able. Just wanted to get the first one out of the way!

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  2. Ruth Elliott says:

    Love you April!!!! Great beginning!!!

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